Then vs. Now

It's almost 1:30 am and I should really just go to bed. But it's summer and I only have one class tomorrow and no work. So I decided I'd write a post. Not because I have a lot to say but because I want to remember this specific point in my life when I realize it's okay. :)

I remember the day my parents and aunt left me down here. I called Melissa bawling that night with the "what have I done" panic in my voice. I just knew I wasn't going to make friends and was going to be lonely and depressed the rest of my time down here. I wanted to go home.

And you want to know something? I still really want to go home. I want to be closer. I miss my family and friends. I miss my 'home team'. But here's the thing, right now that's not possible. I have one more year left of school and then I can potentially be closer to home by next summer. Next summer. I can do this.

Back to my point. I have met some really great people so far and have developed some awesome friendships. Let's face it though, circumstances and life changes more often than we'd like it to and sometimes those relationships are just part of our life for a season. And so once again I am ridin' solo (well, never completely--God's got my back and I have a super awesome Bible study group that I adore:)). The difference between this time and in Aug when I just knew I would die of loneliness? I LOVE my alone time and I'm okay with it! In the past 11 months, I have grown in ways I didn't know I could grow. Im learning so much! I've had to put my big girl pants on and do things I wouldn't normally do by myself. I used to always feel bad when I would see people in restaurants eating by themselves. I am now one of those people and I'm totally okay with it!

Anyways, my point is that sometimes when we think we will surely die because of a certain situation in our lives, God will use it to teach us a lesson of some sort. And remind us that no matter what, we are NEVER alone. :)